Misconception of a Beautiful Mind

So many others have the biggest misconception about me. A view or opinion that is incorrect because it is based on faulty thinking or understanding. What people fail to understand is, at the end of the day,  I'm a realist.

re·al·ist

ˈrēəlist/

noun

noun: realist; plural noun: realists

1. a person who accepts a situation as it is and is prepared to deal with it accordingly.

   "I am a realist, with no time for your world of make believe"
2. an artist or writer whose style is characterized by the representation of people or things as they actually are.
3. a person who believes in the theory of realism.

   "modern philosophical realists" 

 "Are you okay?" (Guess I'm just asking) "Where do you work at now?" (Same place..)  "How have you been?" (Because you were so worried; being absent for the past couple years) Questions that have been asked from those who try to find things to ask but don't really mean to ask? Is it me or does that sound like someone who is trying to be an investigator with no badge. Just saying. I've been told (I guess..) what I'm known for, is being funny, outgoing, a "gay-ass", kind, giving, smiling, content, humble, fighter, no filter kind of person however; when I am just in a space where I am quiet or don't want to do certain things, rockin' out to some slow jams so help me god, I am depressed. *rolls eyes.

"I have had my share of Fuck-Ups." - A very good influence of mine once said and she's right. I have had my share; no regrets in any decisions I have made. Being so close to thee only goal I had and it back-firing in ways that can't be imagined, Splattered across the front page of my life will have everyone categorizing me as thee number one "concern" of their liking's, patiently waiting for news to appear on Social Media.  

Some people are thrown-off by the fact that I may not share the same interest(s) or think I'm just plain dumb, intimidated by the things that I am interested in, growing a fear, backing away solely because its something different. Some people believe that my life-style is wrong. I believe those people are "Close Minded". I know my boundaries, my boundaries with others and respect an opposing point of view, only from people who are "Like-Minded" and"Open-Minded". Does that mean that I have to follow them? No, but respecting their point of view and agreeing to disagree. Others see it as "I'm better then you" and just disagree which is fine too, Does it mean that I'm a bad person for doing what I want to do? Hell no, I just know that I'm a good person regardless. Growing up I was affected by the cruelty of both sexes. Luckily my brothers didn't raise a fool and have taught me how to stick up for myself and also giving thanks to my sisters, I was raised to always forgive and love. They have been through it all at this point and being the youngest, the lessons they have instilled in me, so that I don't go through what they have been through, shaped me into being a very grateful, optimistic, selfless person. I understand.

You don't find that many people who will do just about anything for those they love. Not only is this is a gift, in every same way, a curse. I really don't know what it is but, I will die for those if it meant, they at least were grateful, that I was able to do something for them. Blinded by infinite love, still its never enough for those who seek more. I get asked a lot,"What did you learn?" in regards to a bad situation. I pick and choose what I want to learn, right? My response is nothing, why? How do you learn from something you gave your all into, to have it thrown away for a quick fix and a cigarette? For me, knowing that I do everything I can, for me, its enough to forgive so easily because I don't have it in me to have hate towards others and don't have regret in decisions I've made. 

I except the misconception others have over me. If I am thought of being different, Please sign me up because I'm all for it. 

Reality is, you will not have an impact on the world if you're just like it.

Because its rare, almost never met that often and clearly misunderstood, those who're open, understand different points of agreements while being YOUnique, tell me THAT isn't as equivalent to those, who just learn to follow. I live life differently and that's the misconception of a sacred soul with a beautiful mind.